Finding the right words to share this news has come relatively hard. I'm sure we have all felt the pressures of trying to live under what other people have thought to be somewhat close to perfect. Well, my life has been flip flopped, tossed around, and at some times completely lost within these last 20 weeks of my young 22 year old life. I have found the best, most supportive friends that I know God purposely placed in my life. And I've found the more judgment people who are on the opposite end. Times of trials prove your true friends I suppose and Boy has this time proved that to be more true than ever.
Well friends, I am Pregnant. Yes. Now that you have wiped your eyes, picked your jaw up off of the ground or possibly called a close friend to say "Have you heard?" I’m ready to share the details of ME and the new blessing with each and every one of you. I was currently playing basketball at West Texas A&M and was taking on a full time schedule. If anyone of you have ever been pregnant you are SHOCKED by this news. If you haven't, the first trimester is possibly one of the hardest times of the pregnancy (especially if you have no clue what’s happening to your body*) Well, I knew that I was stressed out and that had to be the reason I was losing so much weight, and I knew that the daily battle of competition is why I was sleeping almost ALL day and night. Well, come to find out, I didn’t know much at all. At the time I was 9 weeks pregnant, alone & scared. I have the most wonderful family that I did not want to let down and I knew that this was going to be okay...with time. Well, after I shared the news with the father, I knew that it was time to get the ball rolling. I soon went to a place called Netcare, because believe me I was in a state of SHOCK. This was a Christian based pregnancy center that advised me and counseled me (at that time) of grief. I knew from the very beginning that I would KEEP this wonderful blessing, I just had to get a grip on life* and what was best for me & baby. (Wow, you'd be in shock that Im sitting at work in tears)
Well as 4 days went on, I kept playing basketball and guarding my stomach with what was left of my fragile body (If you dont know, If you don't eat, the baby will then use YOU as their main source of nutrition). I knew that it was time to stop when My coach yelled out "Take charge drill." You see, this was the most physical drill that we do in basketball...The assistant coaches take pleasure in running our butts over & it's usually fun for us to get practice going...unless you know your 10 weeks pregnant. Well, This was breaking my heart but I had never walked away from my team. After this practice was over we headed out to Dallas for a few trips and this was my last trip as a member of the Lady Buff basketball program. It broke my heart to let this sport of which I worked my WHOLE life for...simply go. It was one of the hardest things I've ever EVER had to do. If you know me, I've had a ball in my hand since I was uhhm Probably about 3 days old. I tell you my friends, my FAITH saw me through this...believe me...*Im getting there! -Anywho, I quit basketball & found great and supportive team mates who are still amazing and some of my very best friends and am now working at West Texas Golf Carts...in which God has also blessed me with (Great Family & Great Friends.)
So this is where I am at now & where my "Realized Happiness" has come from. After I found out that I was pregnant, I knew that I wasn't going to be able to make it without my Lord & Savior Jesus Christ right by my side. I fell to my knees and asked him to please help me through this and believe me...I've never seen his love so evident through this time in my life. After I told my parents I knew I had to tell my great friends Hilary, Camille & Erica. I told them and they have not left my side. God KNEW that I was going to need each of them...& the funny thing is, is that I know they pray for me...more then they tell me. I love them to death. ALSO, I have the MOST amazing family... My parents, WOW, have been out of this world. They have banded together and supported me full force. I think it was the hardest telling the, but their profound belief in Christ also helped the situation (Thank you Jesus!!) And my sister, seriously Sent from heaven. She has been the best-Tells me all of the no no's of pregnancy and what in the WORLD is going on with my body. *Amazing to say the least- This situation has suddenly turned from a harsh reality, to such a wonderful blessing. I know that this happened to ME for a reason, when in reality it could have happened to any young woman who possibly couldn’t have handled it. God knows what hes doing Yall. I went to the doctor for just a small in office appointment, and when I heard that heart beat I was automatically in love... It was just like God saying "Here's your precious miracle"...amazing* I know that for some of you, you make think...Well what a damper on your testimony...OH NO! This has only increased my testimony and my ability to reach out to young mothers who need someone like me to come to... I know that I can help them and am currently reaching out to find those opportunities.
Lastly...My best friend shared this with me...Jacki* When she read it, It brought me to tears and helped me realize that God's GRACE is over flowing... and I am so blessed to be loved by such a father....A Woman Washes Jesus' Feet36 One of the Pharisees asked Jesus to eat with him, so Jesus went into the Pharisee's house and sat at the table.37 A sinful woman in the town learned that Jesus was eating at the Pharisee's house. So she brought an alabaster jar of perfume38 and stood behind Jesus at his feet, crying. She began to wash his feet with her tears, and she dried them with her hair, kissing them many times and rubbing them with the perfume.39 When the Pharisee who asked Jesus to come to his house saw this, he thought to himself, "If Jesus were a prophet, he would know that the woman touching him is a sinner!" 40 Jesus said to the Pharisee, "Simon, I have something to say to you." Simon said, "Teacher, tell me." 41 Jesus said, "Two people owed money to the same banker. One owed five hundred coins[b] and the other owed fifty. 42 They had no money to pay what they owed, but the banker told both of them they did not have to pay him. Which person will love the banker more?" 43 Simon, the Pharisee, answered, "I think it would be the one who owed him the most money." Jesus said to Simon, "You are right." 44 Then Jesus turned toward the woman and said to Simon, "Do you see this woman? When I came into your house, you gave me no water for my feet, but she washed my feet with her tears and dried them with her hair. 45 You gave me no kiss of greeting, but she has been kissing my feet since I came in.46 You did not put oil on my head, but she poured perfume on my feet. 47 I tell you that her many sins are forgiven, so she showed great love. But the person who is forgiven only a little will love only a little." 48 Then Jesus said to her, "Your sins are forgiven." 49 The people sitting at the table began to say among themselves, "Who is this who even forgives sins?" 50 Jesus said to the woman, "Because you believed, you are saved from your sins. Go in peace."
And by the way...The fun part...I am currently 20 weeks and 2 days. We found out about a week ago that it's a BOY...team BLUE* :o) Mikah Jay is his name... already so Loved...Remember everyone... God is ABLE!
